Ought to be Thought

I need to get some stuff off my chest.

When we made MTD Kradia, I agreed to lead it because my friends would be there. I wanted to be in a nice guild with every single one of them. I didn't know how frustrating it would be.

I didn't know NightFlurry would be irresponsible. I didn't know he'd be inactive and practically unreachable. I didn't know I'd end up semi-defending him when a group of people wanted to remove him, staying up until goodness knows what hour in the morning punching holes in plots to removed him.

I didn't know he'd end up resigning anyway.

I wish I'd spoken up in more topics around Christmas time. He really was a lovely guy and a pleasure to have around.
I wish I hadn't said some things.

No matter, he left due to other problems.

I didn't know MTD Kradia would become inactive. I tried my best, but real life is very time-consuming too. Argh!
I didn't know I'd end up resigning. Or maybe I did.
Maybe it would have been better if Bellatrixa became leader at Christmas time.
But I was stubborn.

I despise it when people won't confront me with a problem I don't realise.
I'm not sure if I'm being excessively paranoid because of some stuff I've heard. It all might just have come from the resident BSer.

But I'm happy now... and yet...

I miss the days of MTD Kradia.
When we were all there.
When I struggled to find empty slots because we were so awesome.
When I struggled to get Flurry online to expand.
When... when... *sigh*

I want to go back. It hurts to see it so inactive.
But no, Tran is the new leader and I have faith and trust that he'll do well.
(Wait... what?! Tran?! They MUST be desperate. Rofl. XD)

I also could not forsee myself wanting to be in a guild full of the masses. They aren't my friends.
But I want to help get it back to what it was!
I don't have the time!
But it needs all the help it can get...

I want to help. But I can't... and I don't.

Geh.

Is it meant to be this confusing?

It's only a guild in a game and my friends are still playing but not there... and yet...

Why do you think it is some people don't get along with you?

Aside from the fact that this is a few days late (I'm quite bored now and looking at past questions) I'd like to answer it.

Very often, I find myself incapable of expressing myself in a way so that others will understand. I suppose the thousands of misunderstandings I generate would be enough to put anyone off.

Perhaps the main thing would be my firey temper. If something is annoying me it/they'll be sure to find out fast.

I'm also quite a quiet person. It's not that they don't like me, they just don't know I exist!

And then there's the fact that I just plain don't like them. Hehe, maybe that's the reason more often than not.

My mother broke a clock this morning. I managed to fix it with a spare clock mechanism I had lying around in my room (don't ask).

She's constantly telling me to throw stuff away, that we're going to have a 'big sort out' of my bedroom 'on the weekend'. Honestly, I fail to see what is possibly wrong with keeping a few things here and there. Its' not as if it's going to turn into some sort of terrible habit where I keep newspapers from years gone by.

In other news, I really should keep this thing updated with more non-private posts. Will try harder. :}

I've been neglecting this for a while. It's time I tried blogging again.

So I gave it a spring clean. Watch this space. :D

What do you always forget to pack? 
Submitted by quornflour.

For school, it's my glasses. I have to make sure I put them back in my schoolbag once I've finished using them at home et cetera.

For holiday, er... hehe, I go so often, I've become used to what I have to pack. Seriously, though, it's either my hat, bras or enough reding material.

What is your favorite term of endearment? 
Submitted by lostdwarf.

"Okay, when I called you minions, it was really a term of endearment, like- like, "I love my minions."

What's the story behind a time when you got locked out?

I'll always remember that time when I got locked out and was far too young to even be responsible for any sorts of keys (I must have been about 8 or 9). Anyway, I'd been down a friend's house and their grandparents had come over so it had been time for me to go home. However, nobody was home so, instead of sensibly going back to my friend's house (because I couldn't go back there, oh no), I waited outside, curled up into a ball, whimpering and snivelling, not knowing where anybody was.

That is, until my father came home with my sisters (I think my mum might have been working that afternoon) and told me they'd been down my nan's house.

Have you ever started a trend? Followed one?
Submitted by It's Raining Calculators.

Well, back in year eight, our form room was in one of the computer rooms. With nothing to do at lunchtime, we were sometimes allowed to go on the internet. That's when I first joined up with Neopets. I'd heard about it from a few places, like from a couple of books and they had a fair amount of merchandise around at one point.

And, within a few days, literally half the class had signed up. It was mostly girls that did, but there were even some boys on there too. I'm the only one still playing. Thought that might count.

And, as this is my first post on this new blog, guess I thought I'd say hi. Although that's always seemed odd to me, to say hello to a bunch of random strangers. Or an empty space. Whichever.

I've tried a few other blogs, but most of the time when I go to post, I find that the words just disappear and my long rant about the state of public toilets has turned into a half of a sentence of gibberish. I've never been very good with words. I don't know, I guess my ideas don't translate into English very well.

I figured this may be a bit more stimulating.